How Life's Going Lately

So I said I was reviving YinYangKink, and then I disappeared again. Oops. This time I have an excuse: a new job. I'm working as a field organizer on a local race. I moved to a new state temporarily, and I'm working 12 hour days. I'm also staying at someone else's house, so I don't have a whole lot of time or space to myself to think of things to fill this space with. 

I'm learning how to play bass, slowly. I don't have time or money for lessons, so I'm mostly just trying to play songs I like from tabs I find online. Metallica's Sad But True is coming along fairly well.

I wrecked my car. Thankfully all I did was re-fuck-up my knee, which wasn't holding up well anyway. 

Z's congratulation about the job came in the form of a great scene over Skype. Clover clamps are wicked, wonderful things. I've only been here a week & a half, but I could really use another scene like that already.

I've been getting better & better at being able to switch. Not that I've gained a whole lot of skills lately, but the mindset's been easier to get into.

That's all I've got for now. Please forgive formatting issues for now, I'm sending this from my phone through an email. Next time I get on Blogger I'll proof-read.

-- Sent from my Palm Pre

I'm Back

It's been a long time since I've posted on here for a few reasons. A big one is that I feel like I have a bit of a split personality - I say things while I'm subbie that I cringe at once I'm neutral again. I was starting to get very self-conscious about the stuff I'd posted. Another reason is that I see my significant other rarely enough that if I stick to recounting events I don't often have anything to share.

However, I like this blog, and I've decided to revive it. As always, no promises on how often I'll update or on what I'll end up talking about, but I'm going to make an effort to take the time to share.

Happy New Year

I couldn't sleep, so I figured this would be as good a time as any to post.

I realized that I haven't posted in a neutral mood in a while. There's a good reason for that: when I'm focused on sex I am usually either in sub mode or in Dom mode, and I usually post on here because I'm thinking about sex. However, this makes me look pretty bipolar, so I thought I'd give you a sane update.

I am still recovering from the car accident, they've found out I have a torn ligament and torn cartilage in my wrist. My knee is still a bit of a mess too, and I have to start back on physical therapy soon. So I'm spending a lot of time sitting in my room trying not to go stir-crazy, alternating with periods where I'm half asleep for a day or two because of painkillers. I'm working on getting surgery for the wrist, the knee is just a matter of doing the work.

I have no resolutions this year, I'm just not going to bother. I'm already working as hard as I can on getting better at life, so a new year's resolution would be either redundant or trivial. Either way, worthless.

I'm looking forward to being able to learn bass once my wrist is fixed. I'm still going to play lefty, partially because I am already used to it, partially because I don't want to count on my wrist ending up at 100%. (I'm right-handed, but my left wrist is fucked up enough that I can't bend it enough to fret with my left hand.) And Z pointed out that I will be pretty much the only female lefty bassist/vocalist in existence, which is pretty cool. (Once we all learn our instruments the idea is for us to play together - Z on drums, R on guitar, me on bass & vocals. Not because I'm any better at singing, but because I have the guts to do it.)

Happy New Year and all that. Random tangent: people who get upset at "Happy Holidays" make me laugh. Even for Christians, there are multiple holidays in December. Before I get into religion or politics, I'm going to end the post.

Update

I've been bad at updating lately, as my internet connection is fairly awful. However I just figured out how to post from my shiny new smartphone, so hopefully I'll be keeping up with it better. I was working a job with a lot of travel and where calling and emailing people was the majority of my responsibility, so I got a Palm Pre+, which I love. I'm having so much fun with it. After looking through the app catalog a few times, I remembered that I can post by email, so my last post was initially done that way. I plan on then editing any posts I write that way once I do get internet at a computer, so if you see "Sent from my Palm Pre" at the bottom, it's a work in progress. I figure that posting a draft is better than just not posting.

Theoretically, I should have plenty of time to write, as my job has ended. I was planning on going back to school or being in a new job by this point, but my luck is never that good. The night before my last day of work, I was in a car accident. My knee is pretty seriously fucked up, so I can't do much of anything. The worst part is that I can't drive, which even rules out non-taxing things like taking classes or working a desk job. And the opposite wrist is damaged enough that I can't use crutches either. Hopefully this will be resolved soon and I can get on with my life.

Thoughts about YinYangKink

I am very glad that I started this blog. I am a very verbal person, and writing solidifies and clarifies concepts. Also I like having a record of my thoughts from different situations. I want to be able to look back on states of minds I've been in.

I am enjoying putting my thoughts out there. I know pretty much no one reads it other than Z, but I like the idea of it being available. I like the honesty that comes with anonymity. I am using it like a journal of my sex life at the moment, but I hope to expand the scope in the future.

For one, I love the idea of taking some of my fantasies from high school and transforming them into erotica. I haven't been in a mood that's compatible with those old stories, tho, so I may need to just move on to current ones. The thing is that current fantasies revolve around Z, which seems too specific. It just seems strange to write erotica about a real person. I'll have to think about it more.

Another thing that I would like to get into is more of my thoughts about sex, sexuality, and kink. As of now I pretty much just have recorded events. I want to post from a theoretical perspective as well as a practical one.

I also plan on continuing to update my F.A.Q. with questions asked frequently in FL groups. This is partially because it seems silly to write out a new post for a question I've answered before. Another reason is that I like having it all in one place.

Also, if anyone other than Z is reading, please let me know. I would love to get feedback.